I am 18+, that's what people think. Advika's birthday

 Dear Bloggers,

Today it's been a very dull and weak day for me for most of the day. Well it ain't a super big occasion but I can't diarize as I am at Bhyander right now and I didn't bought my diary. Out of the blue plan but still somewhere in my mind it was giving me a insight "carry your diary" and I would've but I didn't.

So Swapna aka invited us for Advika's 5th birthday and today as it was "THE Day" and I wasn't feeling it due to 'that' I didn't wanted to go even though I wanted.

Woke up early, wasn't able to sleep due to it. So later mummy bought a tender water shoot for me, we came here, most of the time I felt ignored but and everyone was ignoring me. At least that's what I felt. But later chachu heard it and said me to indulge with it all.

Then mummy said about my Annabeth Chase audition to him. He asked about it all, and appreciated my acting, said that I do good expression, mami to...(SHAMITA IS OUT!!!) I feel do baddddd. Yeah so mami also praised and RIA said that I have a great American accent.

Also we played some games and later cut the cake, I was filling balloons with chocolates, fixing them with tape, yeah been doing stuff like that. Later chachu burst the balloon and I and our family caught the chocolate. I caught 4 it was really fun.

Then we did all spoke 2 things about Advika. I said she's cheerful and happy. Before all that we cut a cake made by chachi. It was red velvet and it was really nice, "pre-birthday celebration" we called it. Then the real cake Peppi PIG tooth Fairy was cut. Then we ate samosa, I drank caramel milkshake, ate wafers, that's all. 

Later we were told to sing. I asked Shruti kaka to sing first, then I sang "Million to One" by Camila no awesome praise but yeah. Gotta ask mum. Then for dinner jad biryani, fish rasa, Gulab jamun, raita.

Swapna akka gave return gift to Ria and Reva, mum saw and asked me if I was sad for thag. Now when I asked she said she's bought return gift to only to kids. So I'm an adult?! By the way when I came here ai was holding the helmet so Chachi asked you came riding the bike? No! I didn't. Why!? Aren't you 18? No I am actually 29 I'm the biggest of them all. This situation is when I'm 17. Not long for me to turn to 18. Imagine how its going to be when I turn 18. I really hate life and growing up. That's why I am not interested in this year's birthday as I dont want to turn 18. Wish I could die or maybe become Annabeth. But unfortunately I am unlucky. So just forget it. I hat this freaking life.

Yesterday Rick Riordan blogged. Said dont expect to get audition out of the blue as there are kids with agents. So you wont get casted. Neither did I expected Riordan. Cause I am unlucky. I just know.

Even though chachu says so he has so many contacts he wont do anything.  I have to make my own mark. I didn't wanted anyone to know this but mom said. They asked me for party. I said "I'd be dead if I'll ever receive a news so big in my life." Unlucky me.

Growing up is freaking bad, and yucky for people like me. I hate life.

💤Dream of the day -

I guess it was something Spiderman.

💭Thought of the day -

Oh darlin don't you ever grow up,

Just stay this little.

         - Never grow up, Taylor swift