Its biggu's b'day! 🥳🎂+ Christmas Eve! 🎄❄

 Dear Bloggers,

Happy Christmas Eve 🎄❄ and Happy birthday Biggu! 🥳🎂

You might think I am happy and upbeat but I am not.

Today has been the worst day ever. Unlucky me and my life and my family. Every nice day has to end with sadness. These are the sad reasons -

1. Today I couldn't read a thing in Physics, I finished 5 lessons of English (no use), I am still behind 1000's of lessons and just 9 days now. 

2. Mummy's phone is locked due to some reason. Even though we didn't change the password its asking for pin. Did factory reset still asking the pin. If we don't put the pin will lose all the data forever. All teh service centers open on Sunday and today is Friday. 

3. Having a low-key Christmas as we aren't going anywhere and even if we did I don't have a relief from studying. Days are less again and everybody tells me to stop reading so much. I AM NOT INTERESTED EITHER!

4. Can't see Spiderman: No way home. Busy, just isn't in my luck, unlucky.

5. Mummy is taking 40 lakh loan which will take her 30 years to pay, plus he bank has raised the interest rate, means more money. Which means she'll have to pay 40, 800 as EMI. Which means out of her 80k income, 40 for bank, 20 for mutual fund, 10 for us. Is that enough? I am worried about that. When I ased her how she's going to pay that long, she said "won't you be working?" Dependent on me. Here I don't wanna grow up and I am anxiously waiting for an opportunity in the U.S.

6. No news from Percy and I don't think they'll reply back. If they'll just say that I am not selected I'll be really peaceful and won't keep hope anymore. 

7. There some loud music playing the background and its eating up my head. 

8. I am just not able to study as I've had enough!

9. Only 6 days for the year to end. Another year of my life wasted. Another year when none of my dreams came true.

All I want is just 10 days break. All I want to do is just sleep for 10 days straight, dreaming about all the things impossible for me in real life. No worry about a thing, life, age, exam, school, etc.

But its just not possible.

💤Dream of the day -

Some ghost dream.

💭Thought of the day -

Fear can hold you prisoner and hope will set you free.

                           - yeah but what bout the thing you do with fear never gives a result                               that you expect.