Things weighing heavily on my mind

 Dear Bloggers, 

Today was a really confusing and stressing about my future day for me.

I had been writing the Maths practical since morning, later spoke to some kids from Somaiya who asked me if I hadn't "attended even one practical!?" I thinking if I took the right decision by not going cause if practical exams happen I don't know and isn't as confident as I should be.

I'm also really scared about the exams because of the boy's from Somaiya also said that "Prelims might be happening in January". Which is what I'm mostly scared about. Studying 12 lessons from 9 subjects. I know it sounds "just that!" But it's a lot. Because each subjects contains 500 pages. Imagine my mental situation.

Im scared that I couldn't score as much marks as I did in 10th if board exams happen. I'm scared. English is not a worry, just English. Then there's Marathi, Physics, Chemistry, Biology such vast studying and upon that Maths of which I don't know a single thing.

Stressed, stressed, stressed!

Upon that I have to go to Somaiya that's a big headache. Mummy says that she won't be taking me there I'll have to go alone. Train, metro, rickshaw, bus. I'm scared!! I can't go alone. I wonder how other kids do it. Stressed out.

Tomorrow have to go for Basketball. Monday's tour already broke my bones apart. I'm still not able to walk or sit down. Tomorrow is selection. I don't know what's gonna happen tomorrow. So many things revolving around my head. 

If offline classes started I'll be completely dead. So many things.

I really wonder does people like Taylor Swift or near example Johnny Orlando stresses about all this? Did Taylor ever had problems like these except on the topic she writes songs about. I really wish if I just could've stayed in school forever. No worries or stresses. Growing up is really bad. I hate it. So much things. Yucky gross things, worrying and bad things. I wish if I just stayed at school.

💤Dream of the day -

Forgot.

💭Thought of the day -

"Rather than sitting and worrying, 

do something, anything. 

Worrying is a waste of time." 

                  -Catherine Pulsifer, you're right