Texting is different than reality

 Dear Bloggers,

Went to Somaiya today for that Board Form filling work but these idiots are so unorganized! Instead of leaving us at 11 it became 11:30 and the other kind were wandering for a place to sit. Later I guess someone gave them the idea to collect all the forms at once so it later took less time. Tomorrow they have called us again foe that form filling. Couldn't we have just done it today. Is it easier to travel so far spending so much? All we did today was giving a few documents, give a photo and sign. Again idiots. Could've done this small thing tomorrow as well. Whatever I hate the teachers teaching in the place I can't imagine if I'll ever get to hear the news that board exams will be conducted this year.

Today about my day, I slept for 1hour. My intension was for 10 minutes but that led to 1. Ever since I woke up until now I've been studying. Since 4:20 or 40 till 8 (now). Had quite a good day. Wanna do some voice acting and singing on Smule now. After I finish studying and writing my diary of course. 

By the way, today too me and Riya were sitting very close at the class still when she saw my face she didn't talked to me. Doesn't affect me much, just sayin'. I was thinking that I was asking her from her a lot and maybe that's the reason why she's distancing from me thinking I was using her. But the reality is that she was using me. On the first day we met she was nice and communicative with me and I think she must've thought me as one of her kind and by that I mean the way that she was behaving today was so gross and yucky. 

She was talking weird things with a boy and the girls who were in her group too were like her, using bad words and stuff and I am not and never been the lousy so I guess she came to know that so she "left" me and yesterday she needed me for her book completion so technically it wasn't I who was "using" her but it was me who was being "used". I also think she might've have thought that I am lonely and I don't have any friends in that institution but she was wrong. I know this by the way she was behaving with me on Monday and I too kinda knew she would act like that by the way she was leving my messages on seen but guess what, what she did really helped me. 

I went to ask other people for help and made new friends that way. Well someone I can call a "friend" not my friend. Whatever. Someone to talk to is enough. 

That Shilpa teacher too is noting like I imagined first of all, second she doesn't even talk to me! How rude. Like all the other teachers did but she doesn't even look at me. People at texting are 10000 imes different in real life. Mandar too today spoke with me for the first time and that to what it was? What's your roll no. Seriously! Like we talk so much in chat but all he asked was roll now. Whatever he too was from Riya group so I am just not "fitting" into their category discription (hey! that would make a good song title, might write someday)

Which reminded me, Preeti called today at the morning if I wa accompanying her today I was asleep but my ears were open. Mummy said that she's coming. She's a nice, smart girl. In a good way. I saw Siddhi but I know she doesn't recognised me as she haven't even seen me. She was sitting far away so I thought of meeting her some other time.

That's all. And now I have zero hope with PJO. By the way, Vivien texted. Will talk some other day. Busy. And I don't want to make that habit again. Its okay sometimes but not always, its exhausting.

💤Dream of the day -

I forgot. Now I remember. I was at school and SL, Val and Shravya (had a bob cut, hairband hair) was standing with me. I was kind of surprised to see her. It was recess. When I go through the gates for washroom, it was closed. Later I was talking to Komal. I was telling her that she inspired me to read all day and night at school. Seeing her determination lit a fire in me. I was also telling her how I missed reading and haven't been reading good these days reminiscing my 10th.

💭Thought of the day -

Stay away from negative people. 

They have a problem for every solution.

           - so if the have problem...oh now I see! Its problem to every solution and not                 solution to every problem! Because that's for positive people