My Birthday! 🎂

 Dear Bloggers,

Like I said yesterday today is my birthday, or maybe I am mistaken because I don't feel like it at all. I feel so bad. I don't know why. 

Since the morning this is how my day went, I woke actually slept yesterday night in a sad mood because I went to see my last written diaries which I kept at my mala. When I went there I was devastated to know this when I found out that my entire 32 diaries and my Songbook. From year 2017 is gone. Termites have corroded it all. I felt bad and when I asked my mummy something she gave me a bad answer and again I felt sad because no is there this year as well to attend my birthday whereas "other people's birthday" is celebrated as if they are on top of this world.

This all made me sad and when at 12 am my mummy wished me I just said "No need". Imagine being all alone on your birthday, your parents work so hard to make it a good one, people who know its your birthday ignore you even though you wish them on your birthday. Imagine what would you feel if you were in my place.

I feel that I couldn't give enough respect for mummy because she worked so hard for me today.

I got call from Swapna akka, Dodda, Akshaya mami, Biggu, Supritha mami, Chota, Vimala mami, Vittal ajja and Bharthi mami. In WhatsApp people who wished me were Ayushi, Sharanya Akka, Sunil Kukreja, Neha WPS, Sudhakar mama, Geetha and Sujatha doddamma, Sandhya and Vinaya aunty, Veena aunty, Harshita akka, Abhi akka, Sangeetha aunty, Shalu akka (she said they'll come for my birthday next year)  and one of my high school friends, Riya. All these people. I am so thankful for you all. Thank you sooo much for wishing me and showering me with all of your blessings.

Chota again asked me what I want as a present. I said all the shops were closed.

Today the day was worse than usual, I just don't know why. I usually wait so much for this day but every time it ends up being a bad one. Today current went off at 7am in the morning and returned at 2:50 pm. People who knew that it was my birthday didn't wished me even when I spoke to them. One of them insulted me.

Yesterday night me and mum went to my friends house and I bought her cycle. One of our neighbors asked my mum sarcastically "For who is this cycle for?" "Aashu, else who?" "No she doesn't ever come out of her house so I asked her...I want to see when she rides this." [Like giving me a challenge] Mum woke me up at 6 am but as I slept at 1am yesterday night I couldn't get up. Will go tomorrow. I was very tired bringing that huge bicycle home. I even got hurt.

People who wished me they called me all wrong. Some said 'Ashu', 'Ashna' I'm really mad at them because some called me by my correct name as well "Aashna" but I'm not Aashna for them. They are my close ones. We've always been together and they always called me as "Aashu" then why am I suddenly "Aashna" for them? That hurts me a lot.

Mummy made a Pancake for me in the morning breakfast. She bought a cake with Harry Potter logo. I can kind of imagine how its going to be. Haven't seen it yet. She bought some special candles too. She is making Chicken and Falooda yeah that's all. Those are my favorite and she worked really hard for it all and I am very much thankful for her. I can never forget her help and all that she did for me.

Lets, ignore everything I wrote because that was the negative me now here's a happy me cause I am super happy now!! Yay its my birthday. I got a nice comment saying "You have a good voice on Smule", I learned Harry Potter's full music and uploaded on Reels on IG and got 800+ views, one comment saying "nice". Today's just awesome although it would've been ton awesome if ajja would've wished me but its okay he did call me at night. In my imagination and said "Happy Birthday Aashu" My lovely ajja. 

I love my family and all the good people. Some people say for jealously, some people say for good. My neighbor she is a very nice lady. She wanted to see good of me that's why she said that and afterall she and uncle were the first ones to congratulate me for scoring good marks in 10th.

 I couldn't make a YouTube video. Taking a short break, don't worry once I'll catch up back my everything I'll start doing it all again.

Thank you for everything. And tbh, I am not still 17. I was born at 11:45 pm so not until then. I kind of feel my birthday should be made between 20 and 21 as I'm neutral but still I love 20 and everything!

Thank you once again to the moon and back for everything I own, I got and I will get.

- Aashna K Shetty, 2021 - 16 years still (17 at 11:45 said ya!)

💤Dream of the day-

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💭Thought of the day-

Enjoy your birthday as its just your day and not anybody else's.

                                     -I do!