Still happy, a bit no...

 Dear Bloggers,

Today I feel like I've wasted my entire day. I only studied for a little whie and the rest of the time I was watching TV as mum wasn't at home. It's Bunk'd time but I won't watch TV anymore will write till 12 am. 

Also, about the yesterday YouTube comment - That person is a talent scout at some website called as "Sessions" and that website is for a person who want to make a living though their singing and  i am not from those desperate types. I wonder at first place how did I even get this opportunity. They sent a mail and Instagram dm and all. BTW, I hate Instagram and thought that I deleted it but haven't yet. Have to now. I'm just not that type of person and I can never be that person. NEVER.

I didn't had any hopes this tim,e that it would be like the way Andrew Gertler found Shawn Mendes. Boring... This is the 2nd time that this kind of thing happened with me. The first time it happened on Smule when a man dm'd me there and said he's a record label manager so later it turned out that he was faking and was trying to get me into some bitcoin ? business. Also, when anything like this comes up I become scared and I don't know why. I mean its my dream right? I shouldn't be scared but sometimes I wonder maybe this is not it? I don't know. Life is changing very fast. Just 2 days back I remembered my life of 2014 and was crying thinking about it. I have a lot of changes that need to be done in my past. If only there was a way that I can visit my 9 year old self.

The year when my ajja was with me, Snigdha was not born, Biggu and Chota were not married, I would have given a good answer to Sastha for saying those things on the new year, I would have become so big- so fast. It was this year when I was a kid and everyone loved me, I had a lot of friends, I no changes t accept. Just me, my family, my babysitting, my school, my friends. Everybody was nice when they were kids. Anyway, not be sad. These days are going quite good. I don't want to ruin the with my past thinking and sadness.

OK. Today we had a holiday for school as it is Shivaji Maharaj's birthday. He is my favorite leader. He's done very good things in his life. We even had a full book of history in 4rd grade dedicated to him. It had everything about him since his birth to his death. I still have it. I have saved all of my history books ever since we had that subject in our school. Since 3rd std, that's when history subject was started for us. And I didn't make the video on YouTube because I wasn't feeling it. Alright, Good Night and Sweet Dreams.

💤Dream of the day-

I was in a scary video game. Then I was in my school function. Yeah, something like that. Yesterday mom bought  me and her a tasty icecream. It was of Rasgulla nd Rabdi flavour. She bought Rasgulla one for me but her's was melted so we kept it in the fridge and our fridge couldn't freeze it. So, its in a melted state.

Also, I asked my "so- called English teacher" on WhatsApp for some doubts. She saw it, but ignored. I guess I'll have to live with that doubt. Also that Math Teacher added me tto the Classroom yesterday. After so so so much of requests. He added me when I said it on his class yesterday.

💭Thought for the day-

Do what your heart says. Always.

                                                - I just said.