I did something bad..

 Dear Bloggers,

Today Mummy was at home and as usual my classes are still on and as usual I don't like the teacher's teaching. Will what can I do? Its written in my stars so I can't change. I've been feeling sad sinve the morning. Just the same old things and a bit of guiltiness as I did something real bad!

Yesterday night when finished writing my blog I just searched as Disney Channel Auditions and I got this website. It showed as audition on 26th January for some major television programs for Disney, Nick and others. I was so psyched to audition and without a second of thought I registered to the website which asked my and parents name, country and zip code and name and email. Later I was so damn scared that I did all this thing without saying to mum. I never do that. I had this heart pounding so so fast as if I did a big major crime. I couldn't sleep at night thinking about what I did and how will I say it to my mummy. The minute when I sent my message I got a email that said about the zoom meeting and the scripts ad there is going to be a guest star from the show K.C. Undercover. 

I was scared as hell I say. I straight away realized my mistake the minute I did that registration and sent it so I directly went to a website checker. Which showed that it is safe but still in some corner of my heart that fear existed. Then I saw their Facebook and all and realized that they did send a zoom link and the scripts it might be true. In the morning somehow I took the guts and said it to mum. She didn't say anything. She said one thing " Don't worry. If anything happens it'll happen to my device" in a sarcastic way so I was calm. Its like a big burden was taken of off my chest.

I could've convinced her but I don't think that I am okay with going too fast. I mean it wasn't worth trusting and its the journey that matters doesn't it? (Even if that journey will take years and years of hard work or might never be true). So that audition is tomorrow 26th of January 7.00 pm. They said that here are only 200 seats something. I just hope that they don't call my mummy phone. That's the only thing. I just want them to forget. The most big thing I'm scared about is that I gave my mum's info. She must have some important things in that Email. God, please help me once. Please let them forget my registration.

When my mum was mad in the evening while talking to me she said " You've been for 3 years on Smule and have like 2-3 thousands of recordings what good thing happened to you from that?'' Nothing. She's true. But I'll try. My best. I have a friend there. Em Rossi. She is a musician maybe she'll help me? I don't know. She's kind and nice in the chats but maybe that can also be because she wants to increase her fandom that way. At least she is lucky that she has a record label from The Warner Bros. Company! I'll probably reach there, (definitely impossible) when I'll be 60 or something. 

Sabrina, Selena, Shawn and the recent examples Johnny Orlando and Olivia Rodrigo at 17 are doing so much big things and me at 17. Confused, confuse, and confused. But, at least I can Live While I'm Young! I can enjoy my life as much as I can. The freedom of being ME!

Tomorrow is the Republic Day so I guess I'll have something to share!

💤Dream of the day-

I don't  remember.

💭Thought for the day-

Believe in yourself and thing will be alright.

                                                                 - A Great Person.