A Not So Good Day!

 Dear Bloggers🌼,

My day today was moderately splendid with a little jolly good adventure (*Speaks in British accent*) Oh I can't keep up 'the act'. Today wasn't the least bit of good. So, as I said yesterday I had a meeting with S.K. Somaiya (my high school) and I hate it. 😔 The school, the teachers, everything. My mum like always thinking about my future but never my happiness did today too the same thing and chose Computer Electronics. First of all I wanted Arts and 2nd of all I'm not the least bit of interested in Science, hardware, software, how the website is developed and all that crap! It ain't me. Surely, I'm inquisitive in learning new things but I can't stick with it for my entire life. Music is my life. It's something that I can live with my entire life. Performing on a stage makes me happy 😄. I'm very thankful for my uncle whom I call as 'Chota' for sending me a mic but I'd be very grateful if you would have spoke with your U.S Clients about me. I am not your daughter but at least I am your niece. I can't say these things when I talk to you because we don't have that kind of relation but at least don't discourage me. The time when you said 'Aashu show me your singing that day' I felt very very much happy but the next day when you said 'You quitely become an IAS officer' That hurt me the most. This was the real reason I wasn't very responsive to you when you asked and yes I was angry with you that time because you did this. And no matter what you, do this is something that I can't forget. It still makes my eyes numb when I say this. 😢

You know guys my ajja (grandpa) gave me blessings that 'May god always fulfill any wish you have and anything that you want to be' I really miss you. Why did you had to go so early? Our family is falling apart. I miss you a lot...I always remember you. Anytime when I look at your photo. The place where I showed you my drawing has you photo now you ajja. I can't never be who I dream to be and neither will anybody ever understand.💔😭 God sees and punishes me for every wrong I do then why isn't he looking at me why I am sad? I can't share anything with anyone because if I'll say anything of this to anyone they'll probably laugh at me. But here I can be real me!

I believe anything is possible but went something like this happens it breaks me so damn much. I'll always end up being someone I never want to be and I pretty damn sure about that. Sometimes you know what I wish to be ? A bad guy. 😈Because no one ever stops a bad guy but if its a good guy he's the first one to be put down. Even though I'm so good some people can't trust me. Anyway I must have made you all very sad or some of you must have felt this thing very funny. It might be silly I don't know there's a different way to every person's thinking and I know I'm super weird for you all. Because I think too deep for simple things, very small stuff hurts me, I keep love for non-living things and stuff! I just don't want to talk more. It's been enough dirt for the day. 💩

Sometimes I really relate myself a lot to Justin Bieber's song 'Lonely' and I really hate when singers say that 'I was 15 when the world put me on a pedestal' man, you're so lucky at least you got a pedestal to stand on whereas for ordinary people like me they never get even a view. I must've made you all very sad huh? Anyway, that's how my life is. Not everyone can get to be what they want to be. There are always going to be one batch of people whose dreams never come true. Its only possible in the movies that, after soo much hard work he became what he always wanted! Good night beautiful people. I'll to be more optimistic tomorrow. 😇

''May you get to see the dreams of your likes and may you always wake up in the morning with a pretty big smile'' 😃🌅