Couldn't send it in again!

 Dear Bloggers,

Today I got all readied up but daddy didn't took me for Basketball. He had an appointment with dentist. So I didn't go, all I was upset since the morning because of my Physics studies and the behavior of kids at the bball site. Let's just say everything happens for a reason. Will go next time for sure.

About my auditions - 

Mummy today too was in a very angry mood with me. No reason just taking out her frustrations on me as I have no tensions in my mind that she's giving me more. Again, I was upset while making the video, my face looked bad, my acting was over acting and everything was just bad. I didn't like it myself. So we are again going to record the video which will be the final one and I am for sure going to send it on. 

I had a little hope that I have a little chance of being selected but now after seeing the way I act, let's just say its all gone. They are so many blonde girls, who luckily are born in U.S. and are living in US states, and are 1000 times prettier looking than me. I am totally opposite to the description that matches Annabeth's appearance but personality wise I can say I am 100% her. An artist, emotional person who hides her emotions and cries by herself, how has so many dreams but none of them come true, artistist, wise, sharp, and all that. But just not the appearance so I have no chance of being selected.

But I waited for an opportunity like this for 4 years! And for this one? 10 freaking months!!! Every day and night searching for it. But all I can is that God wants me to be like this for the rest of my life. People say that when you wants something real bad, nothing can stop you from achieving it no matter how hard you try. But in my case that's the total opposite.

Guess that's just the way things are meant to be for me. I don't wanna be okay with it, but guess there's no other choice than to accept it. 

So tomorrow I hope I'll be able to make a good video and send it in.

About my school - Received Board time-tables, studied one lesson of Physics took me 5 hours, will try my best to do one more today.

Harry Potter! - The official trailer for Back To Hogwarts released. I was in tears when I watched. Wish I could be part of something so wonderful. Just thinking about it makes me cry. Like I am doing right. Tears rolling down from my face. After 20 years I can later go for the Percy series and say that I was Annabeth and grew up like her. I would be a big musician like Taylor or Selena maybe when I'll be 30. Like Emma she is right now. But guess some dreams just never ever come true and they just remain as dreams.

Saw a JVO video he made a compilation of his first tour in 2 years more to come...lucky him. Atleast his dreams are coming true.

💤Dream of the day -

I was in a place where all the classmates that I hated for there so I saw Rachel, Rosha, Akansha, etc. They were all doing yoga. Roshna was in a room named "good books" so I ask God, the curator of my dreams to put her in my list of people I hate. Then I turn to Rachel but don't do anything.

Then there were different versions of Taylor from her different albums and we were taking a selfie. Though I felt like someone was missing and I ask Repi Taylor. Called her "Repi" too. Also there was Taylor from Lover, from Red, from Taylor Swift, etc.

The something about mami picking up telephone and mama talking dream.

💭Thought of the day -

Reading is to the mind what exercise is to the body.

                  - But here I am sick of reading!